Selfish Soul

Yeah...It's kinda depressing...give me a break, it's been a while...

"You're nothing good to us," they said.
I'm beginning to fear they are right.
These chains are forged of emotion;
They keep me where I am.
But even if the Key was in reach,
Would I stretch out my hand?
For you could arrive in chariots of fire
And I would not but raise my head to look,
Because these faults have turned to truths
And bear down upon my soul.
These hours are not the healing kind;
They pass by slow and wistful.

One day this selfish soul will give birth to joy.

Bloodloss

Not much explanation, this sorta just happened.


If all you had was hope,
Would you let it go?
No, you would hold it
Even stronger than before!

I can see the stains
Where you wore your heart on your sleeve,
Before reality, or what we call reality,
Tore it away from you.
Do not lose your heart,
For it is stronger than reason.
The space on the page
Is as important as the words it graces.
Fear not when scholars bind you with logic,
See, their bonds will fade in an instant.

Would you really?

My faith is the most important aspect of my life. Jesus is my reason for life. However, I only recently realized what a hypocrite I was being. As Christians, we claim that we would do anything for Jesus. But would we really?
We sit in our nice, warm church buildings, go to our jobs where we make money that allows us to keep up the "dream" so often brought up in our culture. We talk about Jesus, a homeless man who gave up everything for us, and how much we love Him, and then we go buy a nice new jacket. Because Christians need to be warm, right? And, of course, you want to make a good impression on Sunday, right?

What would happen if we truly lived what we believe? What would happen if we gave up everything for Christ? You say then, "But you need such and such to live." We make excuses as to why we can't give up things. What if we simply trusted God for life? The Bible tells us God will provide. But, especially in America, we have gotten rid of the need for God to provide. We have money and doctors and no more reason for the kind of provision we read about in the Bible. If we really trust God, shouldn't we trust that He will provide for us if we really need it?

Anyway...just thinking, I don't claim to have the "answer", but I'm figuring out what God is calling me to do: Love and serve Him and others, no matter what the cost is.

We say that we would give up anything and everything for God.
I dare you to prove it.